When does one get closure? Wait, let me rephrase that question. What signifies closure to you? Say there has been an accident when you were riding a two-wheeler. There is extensive damage but also a tangible road to recovery. Where does that road end? When you get back on the vehicle for the first time, ignoring those trembling hands? Or when you can hear the noise of the traffic without being overwhelmed? Or when you slowly crawl back to confidence, only to be pushed back to square one by a trigger of some sorts. The question is, can you ever finally shut the door on it and call it the past?
Just as our interview is about to begin, Ashwin Saravanan walks in, clutching a copy of Driven: The Virat Kohli Story. It’s a word that could well define Ashwin himself. He stepped into cinema, after quitting his software job. His first film Maya (2015) was a huge hit, and the trailer of his second film, Iravaakaalam, also sparked good responses. However, the delay in the film’s release meant that every conversation with Ashwin inevitably veered to that subject. The filmmaker admits it was tough to come out of it. “Every filmmaker is a control freak. This is the worst situation for a filmmaker to be in,” he says. In fact, he began isolating himself as repeated explanations became exhausting. “Imagine people seeing you pregnant, and then, one day, your baby vanishes. Everyone keeps asking what happened to it.” However, he wouldn’t be stopped.